Oww. My tummy

I ALMOST made it a whole week without b/ping. Last night I had a muffin. I felt major guilt.  I told myself not to purge.  But I had ooked in myself earlier in the mirror,  and I couldn't stand it.  I didn't purge the muffin.  But I just cried instead. pfft.

 This morning, at 3amish I b/ped anyhow by downing an entire box of graham crackers. It's amazing how much pain  ONE b/p can bring.  There have been weeks when I did it 3-4 times a  day and I didn't feel like this.  The last time I b/ped then exercised I had the whole dizzy effect.  This time I needed to lay down because my side ACHED so much.  Now my tummy is bloated and in pain.  Pfft.

I need to get back on track right away and not let this get me down.